Chloe · was · here~

2008.

My, I've never had so much of a roller-coaster of feelings in all my life. Things were all lovey dovey with my ex, and we were going well until he dumped me because his feelings for me "changed". I was crying my eyes out for days and ended up having my first girlfriend. That's where everything started to spiral out of control. Me and my girlfriend were on and off constantly.

My friends were falling out and spreading shit about each other and making vulgar jokes I didn't find funny. School was a nightmare. I felt everyone was sniggering behind me back, laughing at me and hated me and wanted to gang up against me. When I wanted support from my friends, they went "don't come crying back to me."


My family didn't have a clue about it. Sometimes I would pretend to be ill or make myself ill so I wouldn't have to go to school. All the questions and rumors were unbearable. I thought about killing myself but it weren't worth it. When I found out my friends were being bad about me too and also joining in, I decided I was better off alone sorting this all out myself.

But it was hard though because my ex was supporting me, but he was doing it in the wrong way, he was trying to make into some crazy nymphomaniac just to make me feel better. Then I ended up succumbing into other dirty bastards trying to grab onto me. Both online and real life.

Everytime my girlfriend dumped me, I was in tears and needed someone to help me feel better. I felt pretty much rejected and uncared for anyway.

Kayleigh, my friend from school made me feel much better. I still kept that crazy mad behavoir in lessons for her to laugh at and I helped her too. I hope to hear from her again; I need her number.

Near the exam time was a bit better for me, I still did the work and did well in my exams, so that was OK. The summer break was okay too.

Things started to look great when I left school and was at college. I suddenly felt free and no longer trapped. YAY! I was a little shy a first because I didn't want to be too close to anyone cause of the shit that happened in school.

So onto the happy side. YAY!
I feel much better after leaving school, the summer break gave me some time to relax and think about things and decide who was worth keeping contact with and who wasn't. College has been awesome and made some great friends. Thank you Thank you Thank you. I love you all.

Christmas was goddamn awesome, I got a DS lite and failed to set wi-fi up yet, will do eventually. I never talked about christmas on my LJ yet but I might as well say it now.

I was bloody spoilt; fan arts, Bleach volume 1 and 2, Death note manga volume 1, Graviatation manga volume 12, Gimmick manga volume 1 and 2, Little Britain seasons 1-3, Tales from EarthSea DVD,Phantom of the opera movie along with the soundtrack and DVD, lots of chocolate, over 30 pounds, some vouchers, new phone, DS lite, POkemon DIamond, FMA DS Games and some other DS games too, Mamma Mia DVD, Two wooden dolls, plushies, lots of bags and make-up, new clothes, slippers and art stuff. :)

Still got some christmas gifts to finish off. XD Then the kIBAkIBA fic for Mel's dare and Tadashi's dare. XD
And OMG, on new's year eve I went to to a restuarant with my mum and familly friends and my friend from school, Jade kept texing me and I was texing her back and I had the phantom of the opera ringtone. XD And then on new yearts day, with asll the fireworks two men got arrested right in front of me and the police went around Banbury cross. I wanted to see what was going on but my mum told me no. Then I went home and finished off a bottle of champagne ande I was on sppf and got really tipsy. I told Tadashi on MSN and I showed her one of my posts I did when I was tispy and she showed Mel-Girl and she loled.

It was fun. XD

I love you all.

Happy new year.